स्वयं की तालाश में 👣

We are living with two identity at the same time. An identity of delusion,despair, hopelessness and criticism. Another of being hopeful, seeing the good beyond appearance

What is greed??

We must say selfish or excessive desire of something, isn’t it? There is a greedy algorithm in mathematics “greedy algorithm is an approach for solving a problem by selecting the best option available at the moment“. “It doesn’t worry whether the current best result will bring the overall optimal result. The algorithm never reverses the earlier decision even if the choice is wrong”.

Similarly human decisions are affected by this greedy algorithm. When we desire to have something and instead of realising where we are going we keep on moving into the trap. The trap could be of money, career, settlement or lust. This way our brain is hijacked by our thoughts or we must say greed. Cz we suffocate ourselves and our thoughts in this process. We start believing in alternatives and forget our true identity. We starts pleasing people or things and become prey of the greed, thus greed becomes immediate cause of our unhappiness in both long run as well as short run.

So what we should do then?

Never fall in this trap of greed algorithm as it is important to take care of your mental health. Your dreams, desires should not be hijacking your brain and life. Stop looking for immediate solutions be thankful to those who feeds you, nurse you and stand by your side directly or indirectly. Be the reason people could smile and thanks you for being you.😇

What’s your aim in life? I found this is the basic question we keep asking from people and ourselves since childhood. As we say ‘a life without aim/goal is a body without soul’. So we all must have some goals to be achieved, some aims to be fulfilled and people keep working day and night to achieve that. Somehow, there are people who are not bothered about these things still they are heading towards either quest of living standards, money, career, education,peace or anything. But what do you think? Attaining the end result is the only purpose of life? In order to achieve the end results we often neglect one thing that we call ‘ process’ and process refers to liberating your body, mind and soul to become more lively or to have more life. There are days when you feel everything is temporary, gloomy, shadowy and you feel downhearted. The reason is that we keep looking things in others without realising it because it is so natural so obvious to associate your happiness, your peace with other persons, material things or with the way world is. So it automatically transfer our positive energies to others and we become dependent on consequences by

becoming more of result driven. This is how we are neglecting the ‘ process’.

Process to become more liberating, process to become joyous and a happy soul, process to accept and match with synergies of universe and i am trying to be one with the universe.

रात के सन्नाटे को चीरती हुई खामोशी आज ख्वाबों से कुछ कहना चाहती थी । प्रेमचंद के उपन्यासों को समझे हुए मन और समय के संग चल रहे मन में मानो कोई द्वंद हो रहा हो। मैंने झकझोरते हुए खुद को ख्यालों से आजाद किया । मगर गरीबी की जो रेखा खींची थी मेरे मन पर उसे मिटाना आसान नहीं था । बार-बार एक ही ख्याल लंबी सङके अपने अनंत होने के गुमान में चूर थी और उसपे चलने वालो के हौसले प्रेमचंद से शायद मेल खाते थे । कोई प्रेमी भी इश्क में इस कदर ना बर्बाद हुआ होगा जैसे इस महामारी ने हौसलों को परास्त किया था । मेरे मन में रह-रह कर हूक उठती थी ।कुछ कहना था किसी से और कह ही ना सकी थी । खैर रात का तिलिस्म ही कुछ ऐसा होता है जब मन के जज्बात नहीं सो पाते हैं । तिस पर से lockdown के बढने की खबर ने और बेचैनी बढा दी । जो सोचा था वो तो हुआ नहीं और जिंदगी मानो बोझ बनकर पैर पसारे ही चली जा रही है । दिन गुजर रहे थे वक्त बीत रहा था मगर मुझे ये बीतता हुआ वक्त नहीं चाहिए था । उस रोज से खुद की फिक्र होने लगी । हाय क्या सचमुच में मैं खुद को नहीं समझती या बस नजरअंदाज करती आ रही हूँ । जो मैं हूँ,मेरे सपने है,मेरी सोच है वास्तव में कितने मेरे है ।

मैंने निश्चय किया क्यों ना खुद से जान पहचान की जाए।

तब सवाल उठा कितना जाना जाए? मुझे अपनी पसंद,नापसंद मालूम है,कब गुस्सा आता है,कब खुशी मिलती है,जीवन का aim क्या है मेरी strategies क्या है और किनके साथ comfortable हूँ भी मालूम है । तो फिर क्या जानना बाकी रह गया और क्यों । क्या ये अच्छा नहीं जैसे चल रही है जिंदगी चलने दू । क्या पता कोई अतीत का जख्म निकल जाए । खुद को जानना शायद नासूर कुरेदने जैसा ना हो जाये ।

लेकिन ये नासूर अगर वक्त रहते ना कटा तो असहाय हो जाएगा । फिर भी मेरी नजर में कुछ ऐसा नहीं था जो समझना बाकी रह गया हो । हाँ बेबाकी से अपनी बात रखने वाली आदत ने उदंड होने का ठप्पा जरूर लगा दिया था ।मगर मैं भी जिद्दी थी जहाँ बात अटपटी लगी उठ खङी हुई ।फिर चाहे सामने अपने हो या पराये ।खैर इसके किस्से इतने है कि फिर ना मुझे खुद को जानने का समय मिलेगा ना आपसे बात करने का,और कहीं आप टूट ही ना जाओ।इसलिए ना जानना ही अच्छा है । खैर नियति को कुछ और ही मंजूर था । एक अनहोनी दरवाजे पर दस्तक दे रही थी और बेसुध मन को खबर भी ना लगी। ‘खोने’ के एहसास को पहली दफा महसूस किया । पिताजी यूँ तो बीमार कयी वर्षों से थे मगर प्रत्यारोपण उनके लिए किसी शिशु के पहले दफा चलने से कम का अनुभव नहीं था । अथक प्रयास से नवजीवन की अनुभूति हुई थी ।परंतु हाँ जीवन को पहले भी कभी बोझ नहीं माना था हमेशा से मार्गदर्शक ही बन कर रहे थे । आज भी कुछ कहना चाहते थे, अपनी लड़खड़ाती जुबान से भी भरोसा दिया ठीक महसूस कर रहा हूँ मैं ।

डाक्टरों और दवाओं से गहरा नाता था और अथाह स्नेह परंतु आज कहते हैं घर जाना चाहता हूँ ।कैसी विडंबना है हम चाहरदीवारी को घर मान लेते हैं और चार क्षणों को जीवन ।

The story will be continued…. but it is really important for all of us to know ourselves

What we want,how we think and who we are ??

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